Ayumi Hamasaki’s Hearing Loss Worsening; Right Ear Weakens after Years of Compensating for Fully Deaf Left Ear

Since the mid-2000s, a huge topic among fans of J-Pop Empress Ayumi Hamasaki has been about the gradually worsening condition of her hearing. From feelings of sorrow, to worry, to being the butt of a joke from haters; as a singer, it has no doubt affected her vocal technique.

Today, the Ayu took to her Team Ayu blog to talk about her current health condition and revealed that her right ear is beginning to weaken after years of compensating for her fully deaf left ear.

After talking about her knee injury recovery, Hamasaki writes:

Just before this year’s tour began I received a second blow – my hearing started to deteriorate further. My semicircular canals had blown, and I was experiencing crippling dizziness. I wasn’t able to walk in a straight line, and was often reduced to vomiting in the restroom at the rehearsal studio. I tried to put a brace face on things, but was told after various hearing tests that my right ear (which had been working overtime to compensate for my deaf left ear) was weakening fast. I don’t have a clear memory of my journey home after that. I just remember wondering how I, as a singer, would cope with two useless ears. Other than that, I was in darkness.

None of this is surprising considering how her left ear got in such awful condition.

During her concert tour 2000 Act 1, Ayu caught a cold accompanied by an ear infection. She was warned by her doctor that she needed to ease up her exposure to loud noises so her ear infection could heal. However, she only spent a few days in the hospital to recover to get back to touring and surrounding herself with loud noises. Being the hard-working and motivated business woman she is, at the top of her game and fame and devoted to her art and the coins, she did not cancel or postpone any tour dates until Act 2.

During performance rehearsals for her DOME TOUR 2001, it was believed that Ayu began suffering tinnitus, a ringing in the ear that is caused by constant exposure to sound.

Despite the numerous warnings for years that she should avoid loud noises and ease up on her immense touring schedule, Ayu continued at full speed. For years to come, she continued her schedule of at least one tour per year, a New Year’s countdown concert event and appearances at a-nation each year.

In 2007, just before the Countdown Live concert celebrating the start of the new year and her 10th anniversary as a singer, Ayu’s ear began bothering her again. She insisted her new ear monitor was bothering her, but expressed privately that she was concerned about the health of her ear.

In late 2008, the condition was deemed irreversible by her doctor. Ayu went to a doctor and was given the unfortunate news that her ear had gone completely deaf, and there was no treatment. She posted on her TeamAyu blog a few days later to notify her fans, promising to continue being a singer regardless and vowed to go ahead with an upcoming tour of Asia.

Nevertheless, I would like to continue as a singer. That’s why I would like to continue singing until I reach the limit with my remaining right ear,” she wrote at the time on her members-only fan site. “I won’t stop. I won’t make excuses. As a professional, I would like to deliver the best performance for everyone.

Feeling lost with the possibility of not being able to do what she loves, a message of encouragement from a friend reminded her who she was. In today’s post, Hamasaki admitted that she should “probably stop performing,” but that isn’t something she is prepared to consider:

The stage is where I belong. It’s the only place I really, truly exist. I don’t know anything else. There’s no point in worrying about what lies ahead. I will keep listening, even if I can’t hear. I will keep moving, evening if I can’t move. I’m not looking for sympathy or pity. I will hold my head high and keep going forward until my last breath.

The reality of the situation brings on mixed feelings: Ayumi Hamasaki’s outlook and dedication to what she loves doing is both commendable and inspirational, but at the same time, her determination to actively work against her health is entirely distressing.

Selling over 50 million records throughout her career, making her best-selling Japanese solo artist of all time, she has definitely changed the landscape of the music scene in Japan but it’s incredibly disheartening to think about her career’s impending expiration date.

(via @Megawarrior345’s Twitlonger/truehappiness’s @ AHS translation of Team Ayu’s Post, BBC news)


ViVi magazine ending Ayumi Hamasaki’s “Deji Deji Diary”, covergirl for June 2017 issue

After 17 years Ayumi Hamasaki’s “Deji Deji Diary” will come to an end in the popular fashion magazine “ViVi”. Ayumi originally started the partnership with ViVi in 2000 where her “Deji Deji Diary” segments quickly became one of the most popular sections of the magazine. Featuring numerous cute polaroids, the section would usually include an in-depth look at the outfits of what she wore, behind the scenes pictures from concerts/photoshoots, and pictures from her personal travels.

The 200th and final Deji Deji Diary was published in the May 2017 ViVi issue, while the partnership is ending ViVi is sending Ayumi off with the A-list treatment. She is the covergirl for the June 2017 issue, a limited edition version featuring a massive 16 page spread will be released. A special clearfile will be included, as well as an entry ticket to be included in a lottery. The grand prize is a polaroid and ViVi June 2017 issue (both the regular and limited) all signed by Ayumi herself. The magazine will go on sale April 22nd, 2017.

The magazine cover, preview pictures from the photoshoot, and Ayumi’s final Deji Deji Diary can all be seen below.

Ayumi Hamasaki performs “kanariya” for the first time


During Ayumi Hamasaki’s annual “Count Down Live” concert fans were stunned when the show was opened with a song that had never been performed before, Ayumi’s 12th single “kanariya” . Originally included as a secret track on Ayumis sophomore album “LOVEppears”, the song was later released as a re-cut single and made history by becoming the first re-cut single to achieve a weekly #1 rank on Oricon.

Over the years “kanariya” gained some notoriety among fans since it’s her only a-side, and one of the few songs in her entire catalogue that has never been performed live. Many fans came up with theories ranging from the high notes being too difficult to hit live, or simply Ayu herself not liking the song.

The version Ayu performed at “CDL” is comparable to the original arrangement found on LOVEppears, this version however has no mysterious male vocalist and the R&B flavor is considerably toned down in favour of a more classic piano ballad sound. At times the vocals sound like she’s singing through a walkie-talkie underwater, but during the entire performance Ayu performs an extremely impressive air acrobatic routine. P!nk who?

Check out the full performance below.


ayumi hamasaki – We are the QUEENS (Digital Single)


“We are the QUEENS” is a eighth digital single released by Hamasaki Ayumi. The song was used as the theme song for the smart phone game CLASH OF QUEENS.

Released Date: 2016.09.30


1.We are the QUEENS

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On September 30, Ayumi Hamaski will release her new digital single, “We are the QUEENS”.

The song was used as the theme song for the smart phone game CLASH OF QUEENS.

Stay Tune!!

Ayumi Hamasaki Featured In “Clash of Queens” Mobile App Commercial


Ayumi Hamasaki has been featured in a commercial for the mobile app game “Clash of Queens“.

The commercial features Hamasaki standing in front of a castle dressed in a medieval-style costume. A dragon later flies up behind her and sets the scene on fire.

Featured in the CM is a new song from Hamasaki titled “We are the QUEENS“. The song will be released through iTunes as a digital single on September 30.

Hamasaki is not the first pop diva to be featured in a mobile app game commercial. Mariah Carey caused a stir when she appeared in a “Game of War” ad last year.

Check out Hamasaki’s new commercial below:


Ayumi Hamasaki new song “We are the QUEENS” confirmed!



New song “We are the QUEENS” confirmed!
New CM is coming this September, 17th!
There will be two Ayu, one for “Queen’s Song” and the other for “Race Queen”


Ayumi Hamasaki posts salacious lingerie photo following divorce announcement


Is this a new beginning for our beloved chanteuse?

Following her separation from second husband Tyson Hamasaki Bodkin, Ayumi Hamasaki took toInstagram, Facebook and Twitter with a brand new profile photo and an update with a black-and-white shot of the social media artist in only her undies.

This update attracted a lot of attention from fans across her social networking sites: “Ayu-chan’s cool gaijin style,” “This looks like Amuro’s Sweet 19 Blues CD Jacket,” “I feel like you been under prison for three years and now you’re back,” “I’m screaming,” “I don’t like this picture. I em[sic] sorry,” and “Ayumi. A Yummy.

She pairs the image with lyrics from her song “Return Road“: “We saw, we felt, we promised about / Is it still out there somewhere, smiling gently at us?

Return Road” is a song from her 2012 album Party Queen, a return to lyrical self-exposure for Hamasaki, back to being vulnerable to the listener’s interpretation of her. In a magazine interview, she commented that the songwriting process at this point was so easy that she considered making this into a double album. Filled with dance songs and ballads, much of the album consisted of both rejections of and emotional reactions to her divorce from her first husband actor Manuel Schwarz at the beginning of 2012.

Hamasaki has left this song open to interpretation in the past, not confirming or denying it’s about her divorce from Schwarz, but it seems clear that it’s her confirmed official divorce anthem.

Are we ready for Party Queen 2.0?


Ayumi Hamasaki To Divorce Husband After 2 1/2 Years


Ayumi Hamasaki and her husband have separated and are getting a divorce.

The announcement was made on September 12 through Hamasaki’s fan club website. The singer explained that she wanted her fans to hear it from her first instead of learning about it through the media.

For 3 years, he and I have walked together as partners, but now we each go down our own path,” the singer wrote.

No explanation was given as to why the two have decided to get divorced.

Officials clarified that Hamasaki and her husband have not formally filed for divorce yet, but are in fact separated at this time. The singer’s agency would not comment on their relationship, stating that it was a personal matter.

Hamasaki’s husband was an American medical student 10 years younger than her. She announced her engagement to him on December 13, 2013. Their marriage was registered onMarch 3, 2014.

On October 22, 2015, Hamasaki made a controversial tweet suggesting that her marriage was on the rocks. At the time, she denied rumors that the two were having issues.

Hamasaki has said that she will continue to focus on rehearsing for her tours and recording new music.

This is the 2nd time Hamasaki’s marriage has ended in divorce. On January 1, 2011, she married Australian actor and model Manuel Schwarz. The two later got divorced on January 16, 2012.


Ayumi Hamasaki – Many Classic Moments (Lyrics)


Think about it now, isn’t it mysterious, strange, nostalgic?
I was sick, not at heart or body, but regarding the position I stood
Blown by the wind, with gravity lessening
Seen from above, I was momentarily floating through space

Hurting others, getting hurt, losing, getting lost
If everything is gone, if everything stayed a little longer
Just give me one moment is enough

Stay with me, just you
Stay with me, nobody but you
KISS me, just you
KISS me, nobody but you
Stick with me, even if I waver, if I should disappear someday
Stick with me, it doesn’t matter, if we should both disappear someday

Is it not too late now?
Can I walk on even now?
Can I join in even now?
The moment of true bliss binds and colors

Stay with me, just you
Stay with me, nobody but you
KISS me, just you
KISS me, nobody but you

What you and I have built
Isn’t a sandcastle, nor Cinderella’s castle
But we’ve found a castle of memories
I’ll spend my time here alone from now on
Until the bell signalling the end of this world rings out
Stay with me, just you
Stay with me, nobody but you

OH Many Classic Moments
OH Many Classic Moments
OH Many Classic Moments
OH Many Classic Moments

OH Many Classic Moments



Chotto ima kara omoeba fushigi de hen de natsukashii kana
Yandeita mon ne kokoro toka karada toka ja naku tatteita pojishon ga
Kaze ni tada nagasarete inryoku toka karuku natteta
Fukande mitara sora wo hakanage ni uiteiru watashi

Kizutsuketari kizutsuitari ushinattari ushinawasetari
Zenbu naku naru nara zenbu ato sukoshi nara
Nanika hitotsu dake de ii kara ataete watashi ni shunkan wo

Soba ni ite anata nara
Soba ni ite anata ja nakya iya
KISS wo shite anata nara
KISS wo shite anata ja nakya iya
Tsuranuite yuragi nagara demo itsu no hi ka kiete iku no nara
Tsuranuite kamawanai kara itsu no hi ka futari tomo ni kiete iku no nara

Ima kara demo osokunai kana
Ima kara demo arukeru kana
Ima kara demo tsukureru kana
Shifuku no toki ga tsuzure orare irodorarete iku

Soba ni ite anata nara
Soba ni ite anata ja nakya iya
KISS wo shite anata nara
KISS wo shite anata ja nakya iya

Anata to watashi no kizuki ageta
Suna no shiro demo nai shinderera jou demo nai
Kioku no shiro wo mitsukemashita
Kono basho de korekara hitori sugoshimasu
Kono hoshi no saigo wo tsugeru kane no ne ga nari hibiku made
Soba ni ite anata nara
Soba ni ite anata ja nakya iya

OH Many Classic Moments
OH Many Classic Moments
OH Many Classic Moments
OH Many Classic Moments

OH Many Classic Moments



ちょっと今から思えば 不思議で 変で なつかしいかな
病んでいたもんね 心とか体とかじゃなく 立っていたポジションが
風にただ流されて 引力とか軽くなってた
俯瞰で見たら 宇宙をはかなげに浮いているわたし

傷つけたり 傷ついたり 失ったり 失わせたり
全部なくなるなら 全部あと少しなら

そばにいて あなたなら
そばにいて あなたじゃなきゃいや
KISSをして あなたなら
KISSをして あなたじゃなきゃいや
貫いて 揺らぎながらでも いつの日か 消えていくのなら
貫いて かまわないから いつの日か 2人共に消えていくのなら

至福の瞬間が 綴れおられ 彩られていく

そばにいて あなたなら
そばにいて あなたじゃなきゃいや
KISSをして あなたなら
KISSをして あなたじゃなきゃいや

砂の城でもない シンデレラ城でもない
この地球の最後を告げる 鐘の音が鳴りひびくまで
そばにいて あなたなら
そばにいて あなたじゃなきゃいや

OH Many Classic Moments
OH Many Classic Moments
OH Many Classic Moments
OH Many Classic Moments

OH Many Classic Moments